Jimmy van der Eng
It's not much but I hope it helps. I know (partially) what hell you're going through, stay strong. I know people might be very bothersome at a time like this so talk to me or dont. <3
wretch goddess of excess
watch over this body tonight.
i've got demons to feed
and loved ones to disappoint.
i'm going all the way down.
up and out.
if there was a god,
maybe he could fathom my hatred.
but there is none.
we all burn alone.
all alone.
what is my life but an open wound
for you
to stick your fingers into?
we both know that you're not sorry.
i'll snuff out the fucking sun.
trees recede into the ground
as the ocean drinks itself.
system reset. finally i rest.
soon, you will come to me
as you have in my dreams:
naked save for a crown of nightshade,
flowers dying in your wake.
i thought everything was okay.
but why not just let it all fall apart.
it's never your turn to wait, and i know
i'm no work of art.
are you fucking listening to me?
i can see right through you.
there's no need to explain.
no one knows better than i do.
i guess that's just what i get.
i'll never forget what it felt like.
i'll never forget what i saw.
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normally i would NEVER charge for a digital download, but please please donate to help my friend and his family. Riley is one of the grindest, chillest, kindest motherfuckers i ever met. he is fearless and rolls fat blunts and shreds guitar. he has been a huge support to me personally and to my art as long as i've known him. an aneurysm recently left him in need of immediate surgery and in a medically induced coma, and his family in a state of financial emergency.
he does the gutts on the end of practicing for suicide, i wrote that song while i was living with him and never finished it for some reason. the wails on the bridge of i know that u know are him too.
all money gotten from this will go straight to the Harris family, but please also donate at the link below:
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Edit: riley defied the odds and is awake now and doing a lot better, but this his medical bills are still super expensive!
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